“Again” by Jeremy Camp || Worship With Me #51

YouTube Link: https://youtu.be/BNKRAfIc-cQ?si=uy-HTymXno1V2UA8

Today’s song is “Again” by Jeremy Camp. This song was released as part of his latest album “Deeper Waters,” which was released on May 17, 2024. 

In an article by K-Love (link at the end of the paragraph), Jeremy Camp described that this song was written after an argument with his wife. He was wrestling bouts of shame, guilt, and regret. Listen to what he says. “…His grace is always there to lift us up again. Sometimes I struggle to believe in that grace, especially when I keep repeating the same mistakes…” 

For me, I recognize that I am imperfect. There’s obviously part of me that doesn’t want to admit it, but I am flawed. Some days those flaws tend to overwhelm me and send me into spirals of panic and anxiety because I allowed these flaws to turn into my identity. When these moments happen, God is there to remind me that I am not those flaws, but I am his child, and his masterpiece. I’m getting better at recognizing this when those spirals start or almost come in, but I’m not there yet. God thankfully still loves my imperfect self. 

Lately, these verses are close to home:

I’m so ashamed, down on my knees. 

I know there’s grace but is there grace for me?

Fall after fall, prayer after prayer

Father, will You still be there?

WIth the struggles I’ve had at my latest job, and what feels the continuous mental fatigue I battle with it. Anymore it seems that it’s all I talk about. Whether it’s my frustrations, my anger, my panic, my depression, my wish to leave…everything and anything. I know it gets old hearing the same broken record chirp over and over again, but it’s all I got. I’m thankful for my family and friends who haven’t called me out on this yet (to my face). However, the inner guilt and shame has been eating away at me constantly. I have been trying to move quietly into a place where I’m not internalizing the struggles and not overcomplaining about them – it’s been difficult, but there is grace for me in this process. My family and friends have shown it, even when I can’t to myself. My God continues to show with everything that has happened, is happening, and will happen. 

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